Saturday, September 29, 2018

"My Damnation"


The wreckage of my life.
A soul carved out of stone
Everyone that I ever loved
I've push away until I'm alone.
Been cut deep many times,
But I've stabbed them back.
Lost all sense trust of anyone,
Coldness inside my dead heart.
Demons encircle me every night
As I fight the beast in my mind.
My grasp of reality slowly slips
As I leave my humanity behind.
Heaven and Hell drawing swords
The creature inside is unleashed.
Shed my human cocoon forever.
My metamorphous is complete.
The world won't be the same
As I've accepted my damnation.
I'll cleanse myself in the flames.
As I bring chaos to this nation.
The wreckage of my old life
I leave behind buried in ash
Anyone that's betrayed me
Will pay the price at last.

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

The Madam Of Suburbia Chapter 27

Chapter 27 - Red Alert
For the past week, Damian and I been going through all the files, and we haven't found shit besides a fucking migraine that won't go away. As I toss the file that has become nothing but a blur onto the desk, and push myself away. At this point, I rather wear a sandpaper thong than look at all that paperwork. Despite many attempts to make sense of it all, we're still in the same fucking place. We're no closer finding any kind of lead to bring down Madam. Also, my mind is not into this bullshit.
The main reason I'm done with these files it because it hasn't led to contact from one person that I wish was here. That one kiss has left me more confused than a teenager boy with a raging hard-on inside a nursing home. I've done some serious drugs over the years, but never knew fucking love would leave me in such a bad shape. Love is the highest high and the lowest low, and right now, I'm craving it like it's fucking heroin. I'm itching for that next fix so bad that I don't care my next hit it's a fucking low. I just need to see her face to curve my addiction.
He taps me on the shoulder and asks, "Want to take a break? These numbers are making my brain fucking hurt."
"Might as well. We're getting nowhere fast."
As he stands up, an alarm being to blare out of nowhere as the light inside my bedroom turns red. I hear a slam behind me, and as I turn around, I see the windows are now covered by a steel plate.
He hands me a pistol and orders, "Whatever you do, do not open your door once I leave unless you hear me say cheesy sushi."
"What the fuck is going on?"
"Parameter breach. Now, stay here."
He rushes out of the room, and closes the door. A second later, a steel plate covers the door. I sit there with the pistol wondering who would try to breach this place. It's out in the middle of a fucking swamp full of snakes and gators with only one road that leads to this place, and the bridge is heavily guarded. I find myself praying it's a malfunction, or a deer tripped a sensor. The amount of firepower needed to take control would require an army to attack, plus the fact the bridge stays up until a guard releases it means you either have to have someone on the inside lower the bridge, or fight your way through the muck. I take the pistol off safety as I keep thinking it's a malfunction.
I wait a good thirty minutes inside my dark bedroom in silence expecting to hear gunfire, but there's an eerie silence since the alarms have stopped. I sit there aiming the pistol at the door anticipating it to be knocked down by the invading army only to be shot down by an assault rifles at this desk. I almost shit myself when there's a knock on the door.
"Cheesy sushi," I hear Damian say.
I put the pistol back on safety and toss it on the desk as the steel barriers slide back up from the door and windows. A minute later, the door opens, and my heart skips a beat as Amber walks in. She doesn't say a word as she grabs the pistol off the desk, and hands it to Damian. He closes the door, and she turns back to me.
She utters the four words most men dread to hear, "We need to talk."

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

"Damn The Fear"


The rhyming of a chaotic mind
The stories of an insomniac.
The broad strokes of paint
As creativity refuses to relax.
A single idea lights the match
Igniting flames of imagination.
Fueled by the restless struggle
To release our soul's creation.
We torment over our passion
Thinking that it's never perfect.
We hide our craft from public.
Over the ultimate fear of reject.
Damn the fear; take a chance.
Show off what your soul made.
Even to that one single person
Who loves what you portrayed.
A single line or a small painting
Brings color to a very dull day.
The fervor of what you create
In the end will never fade away.