“A Grave”

Gathering for the tired and meek
The strong destroying the weak
Truths distorted by a false reality
Still lost in their alien society
Always surrounded on the streets
The only sound is my pounding heartbeat
Voices lost in conversations on a cell
The way they show signs of life it to yell
Yet their screams fall on deaf ears
The decision makers  hold one thing near
Money is the only thing that makes a sound
Without it, they will run you into the ground
And toss you out into the merciless cold
Hoping that you will never grow old
That you even die overdosing on dope
Or with their hands around your throat
Play by their rules, and you live today
The punishment for not following is a grave

“A Modern Day Psalm”

Praise thy heavenly father
As we partake the holy water
In remembrance of thy son
Who took away the evil man done
A son giving up as a sacrifice
To end the world’s growing plight
Of the battle evil was winning
Because of thy children’s sinning
He came to teach us the way
Then and now in these latter days
But many did not hearken to his voice
Their souls refused to rejoice
They paid for their stubbornness
Falling off the path of righteousness
Sadly, many follow their dark path
Not fearing God’s eternal wrath
Will they take hold of the iron rod
And return to the path of God
It is up to them to repent of their sins
So the temptations of Satan will not win
Will they get on their knees and pray
For the faith to return to thy glorious way
It is up to them to cast away worldly things
And return to the safety of angels’ wings
However, we should not sit idly by
And watch their faith weaken and die
We should try and help our fellow brethen
And do everything in our power that we can
If they refuse our help without any reason
Stand by their side and help fight the demons
Because their faith can either grow or die
In the power thy kingdom in the sky

“An Empty Shell”

Going to erase everything from my mind
Trying to leave all the pain behind
No one to blame for my current state
For I alone made all the mistakes
Yet during this time, I never blamed God
For like an idiot, I played against the odds
I wagered all my dreams in a gamble
One false move has left me in shambles
About to bury all my problems in the ground
As I hold the pistol in my hand with one round
I feel like I'm not a man, just an empty shell
And my tortured soul  is going straight to Hell
I can end it all right on very fucking night
Just pull the trigger and take my shitty life
What the fuck do I have to live for anymore
My marriage is a sham for she's a damn whore
Ran off and slept with my best friend
10 years together came to a very bad end
Sick of the bullshit, I put it to my head
Thinking how bad I want to be dead
When there is a knock on my office door
And the shuffling of her feet on the floor
I quickly put the gun back in the case
And wipe the tears running down my face
I tell her she can come into the room
As I think how close I was to doom
She walks in clutching her teddy bear
Wearing pj's and ribbons in her hair
She walks over to me and sits down
As I just keep looking at the ground
She gives me a big hug and a grin
As the tears flow down my chin
She tells me everything will be okay
That my sadness will slowly go away
I just look at her and begin to see
Everything I want is right in front of me
Even though I end up losing my wife
I still have the never-ending love of my life

”Sometimes”

Sometimes time will eventually heal things
Sometimes words will make things right
Sometimes nothing will fix the problem
And you just end up losing the fight
Never saying sorry opens old wounds
Never saying goodbye hurts her heart
Never saying I'm wrong hurts her soul
And she will just walk away and depart
Always try to make each other smile
Always talk whenever you possibly can
Always make each other feel truly loved
And she'll think you're a wonderful man
Forever will the passion always flow
Forever will you never feel sad and cold
Forever will your souls be intertwined
And together the both of you'll grow old

02/03/12 Thoughts

I'm suffering the worst disease known to any writer: Writer's Block. It's not like I can't focus on something. My biggest issue is on what do I focus on. I'm still in the process of editing my first novel, so I quit working on other novels even though one is now up to six chapters. So, just to keep my mind going, I'm working on some other simple projects. The type of projects I'm working on are projects that might take between a day up to a week at most.

The first project is some poetry. I found about nine poems I started, but never finished. I also have one that was originally 240 or so lines long about The Vietnam War that I want to rewrite as well. I did start rewriting it, but I stopped due to the novel. Main reason I'm rewriting this one is because it was 240 lines of the same rhyme scheme. The way I'm writing it is I'm breaking each major part into a different rhyme scheme. I guess in a way I'm creating chapters for this epic, which might break 240 lines once it's all said and done.

Another project is I'm editing a very old short story. In fact, it's the very first thing I ever wrote and finished. It's scary how much you can improve in six years. The only downside is it's pretty much requiring a total rewrite. It's that bad due to mainly a mixture of past and present tenses, plus other issues. I just hope the plot doesn't change for it's a good one. Then again, this might end up being longer.

Then again, I think my main issue is the lack of motivation. I hope to fix that starting tomorrow. Time will tell.